This time last year I had spent my Friday sitting in St. Joseph's Hospital in Burbank with my girlfriend waiting to see if my husband would be here with me or not.
He was told the Tuesday before Labor Day that, no, we would not be going to our nephew's wedding in New York, but he would be in surgery having triple bypass.
That was the scariest time of my life. Sitting in the waiting room was the easy part, almost, the hard part was seeing him hooked up to so many tubes and needles that even though he was in a semi-coma state and probably didn't feel anything, made my neck, stomach and chest hurt just looking at him.
They had told me that talking to him was a good thing because if he reacted, this meant that he was coming around and would be here much longer.
On about the second or third day, I was chattering away while he was still in ICU when I looked at him and he put his finger to his lips to tell me to "shut up." I laughed out loud because that was the best sign he could have ever given me that he heard me and wanted me to be quiet.
I told him about it later and he laughed.
Having a loved one in the hospital for any reason can be a scary proposition, even if it is for something relatively minor.
After he came home, there were many scary nights because he had to sleep on the couch because he couldn't sleep on his back, he was still withdrawing from all the anesthesia and I am sure, in much pain. I would get up periodically and go into the living room just to make sure he was breathing if he did fall asleep.
We held each other and cried many a night. His appetite was much improved from the hospital and I made sure I had many pots of black eyed peas made because he loved them and that was about the only thing he wanted to eat and he had to keep his strength now.
This year's Labor Day will be much better, with much more fun for both of us. Barbecue tomorrow, barbecue on Monday with friends and loved ones and lots of drinking and joy.
It almost seems like a birthday to me, for him and I don't even know if he is thinking of it that way, but I am.
So here's to you, Robert, your birthday after surviving something I hope I never have to go through again, for him or anyone else for that matter.
Happy Labor Day, everyone.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Resistance and Procrastination on the Journey
God is very good. As I was sitting watching television this morning, I realized I had so much resistance to being successful, wealthy, 3 sizes or so smaller and many others.
I have even been resistant to doing EFT which I find to be a wonderful way of clearing resistance and a wealth of other things. Where does this resistance come from?
Well, I feel that it mostly comes from the conditioning that we have had during our lives. Unless we grew up with money or our parents told us that possibilities were endless and there was more than enough to go around, we were more than likely told that we had to struggle, work hard and maybe some day we would have enough.
That's the way I grew up. With hard working parents who didn't really struggle very much, but had come up during the depression years (and here we are again) and didn't have that mindset.
This is where my resistance comes from. I am also resistant because I feel that I will lose something if I become rich, successful and skinny. What will I lose? I have asked myself that question many times. In my mind (and I have expressed this in workshops that I have taken) I will lose my husband; I will no longer want him because he won't want to travel with me, won't want to go with me when I win my Academy Award or when I go on Oprah (I better hurry up).
All these types of things go through my mind when I think about being wealthy and successful.
Crazy, isn't it? But is it? We all have resistance to many things. What are you resisting or procrastinating about?
Do you have a health challenge that perhaps has others taking care of you and you enjoy that. Do you like the attention? And, if you were healthy, would that attention go away? Think about it.
A large part of being a Spiritual Being is knowing that you are and that you are entitled by Divine Right to everything in the kingdom. Well, the kingdom has wealth, love, peace, health, joy and harmony.
Things we all say we want. If only we could really know who we are, all those things that don't seem to be there will automatically be there.
It's like having automatic entries into your bank account every day. This, for me, is what that knowing is. Whatever you think you require, is already given and you don't even have to ask. It seemingly, mysteriously shows up in the form of person, place or thing.
We have all had some moments of this happening. We think a thing and the next thing we know, there is a phone call, knock on the door, letter or in some form or another, the thing magically appears.
What is so important is getting into the mindset that we have it all, can be it all and it is already done.
But, this is the lot of Spiritual Beings being in human form. We left the garden and decided we knew better than our Father and here we are. Having to "work" at getting back to that place where we know that it is already done.
I hereby declare today that I will work and do whatever it takes to clear the resistance to my good. No more procrastinating and resisting doing EFT. For pete's sake, it only takes a total of 16 minutes out of my life; my best buddy told me about EFT, what more do I want?
I am a resistance fighter now and just like the resistance fighters that helped so many escape war torn countries and saved many lives, I am here to save my own life.
Blessings and love.
I have even been resistant to doing EFT which I find to be a wonderful way of clearing resistance and a wealth of other things. Where does this resistance come from?
Well, I feel that it mostly comes from the conditioning that we have had during our lives. Unless we grew up with money or our parents told us that possibilities were endless and there was more than enough to go around, we were more than likely told that we had to struggle, work hard and maybe some day we would have enough.
That's the way I grew up. With hard working parents who didn't really struggle very much, but had come up during the depression years (and here we are again) and didn't have that mindset.
This is where my resistance comes from. I am also resistant because I feel that I will lose something if I become rich, successful and skinny. What will I lose? I have asked myself that question many times. In my mind (and I have expressed this in workshops that I have taken) I will lose my husband; I will no longer want him because he won't want to travel with me, won't want to go with me when I win my Academy Award or when I go on Oprah (I better hurry up).
All these types of things go through my mind when I think about being wealthy and successful.
Crazy, isn't it? But is it? We all have resistance to many things. What are you resisting or procrastinating about?
Do you have a health challenge that perhaps has others taking care of you and you enjoy that. Do you like the attention? And, if you were healthy, would that attention go away? Think about it.
A large part of being a Spiritual Being is knowing that you are and that you are entitled by Divine Right to everything in the kingdom. Well, the kingdom has wealth, love, peace, health, joy and harmony.
Things we all say we want. If only we could really know who we are, all those things that don't seem to be there will automatically be there.
It's like having automatic entries into your bank account every day. This, for me, is what that knowing is. Whatever you think you require, is already given and you don't even have to ask. It seemingly, mysteriously shows up in the form of person, place or thing.
We have all had some moments of this happening. We think a thing and the next thing we know, there is a phone call, knock on the door, letter or in some form or another, the thing magically appears.
What is so important is getting into the mindset that we have it all, can be it all and it is already done.
But, this is the lot of Spiritual Beings being in human form. We left the garden and decided we knew better than our Father and here we are. Having to "work" at getting back to that place where we know that it is already done.
I hereby declare today that I will work and do whatever it takes to clear the resistance to my good. No more procrastinating and resisting doing EFT. For pete's sake, it only takes a total of 16 minutes out of my life; my best buddy told me about EFT, what more do I want?
I am a resistance fighter now and just like the resistance fighters that helped so many escape war torn countries and saved many lives, I am here to save my own life.
Blessings and love.
Wednesday, July 28, 2010
Children on the Journey
I am so proud of my son. He is a remarkable spiritual being in human form. He makes me laugh, has made me cry but in the end he is my best friend. Even more so than my husband.
He is a Production Coordinator in the television industry. He has done this for about 16 years now and loves it and is very, very good at it. He is now on the East Coast; he moved there due to baby mama drama. Best thing that could have happened to him. He got a job right away, got another one after that, has his own production company; has made phenomenal contacts.
I am awaiting word so that I can get my Emmy, Grammy, Oscar, MTV Award, People's Choice Award, and any other award there is dress. I already have a beautiful red number that my friend Angela Dean created.
I prayed for my son and still do. A mother's prayers for her children are very important. If we teach them what's right and what's wrong and just pray for them, they will be alright, whatever that looks like.
They are only on loan to us anyway. They don't belong to us; they come through us. Someone once asked me if I was going to get him christened. I said no because he wasn't mine and since God had already blessed him and was his, why should I have a ceremony and fancy party just to give him back to God.
We have fought with each other and he has gotten mad at me and went away but realized that everything I had told him was true. Hard way to learn a lesson but learn them he must.
He now has a son and unfortunately has not been allowed to be in his life but that will all change and the reason I know this is because prayer works. I pray for my grandson, his mother, her friends, her family (all of whom are psychotics.)
I am so happy that he is getting to experience New York. At 32 this is a perfect time to be in that creative energy. There is something magical about it and I know when winter comes and they put up that tree in Rockefeller Plaza and he sends me pictures, I will be homesick.
I just made an executive decision to go back there for my visit at Christmas instead of next month. More time to plan and more time to get the money to go. Thanks, God for that thought.
Anyway, I love my son, he is my pride and joy and I am so happy that I have been able to go through my spiritual journey with him.
Peace and love
He is a Production Coordinator in the television industry. He has done this for about 16 years now and loves it and is very, very good at it. He is now on the East Coast; he moved there due to baby mama drama. Best thing that could have happened to him. He got a job right away, got another one after that, has his own production company; has made phenomenal contacts.
I am awaiting word so that I can get my Emmy, Grammy, Oscar, MTV Award, People's Choice Award, and any other award there is dress. I already have a beautiful red number that my friend Angela Dean created.
I prayed for my son and still do. A mother's prayers for her children are very important. If we teach them what's right and what's wrong and just pray for them, they will be alright, whatever that looks like.
They are only on loan to us anyway. They don't belong to us; they come through us. Someone once asked me if I was going to get him christened. I said no because he wasn't mine and since God had already blessed him and was his, why should I have a ceremony and fancy party just to give him back to God.
We have fought with each other and he has gotten mad at me and went away but realized that everything I had told him was true. Hard way to learn a lesson but learn them he must.
He now has a son and unfortunately has not been allowed to be in his life but that will all change and the reason I know this is because prayer works. I pray for my grandson, his mother, her friends, her family (all of whom are psychotics.)
I am so happy that he is getting to experience New York. At 32 this is a perfect time to be in that creative energy. There is something magical about it and I know when winter comes and they put up that tree in Rockefeller Plaza and he sends me pictures, I will be homesick.
I just made an executive decision to go back there for my visit at Christmas instead of next month. More time to plan and more time to get the money to go. Thanks, God for that thought.
Anyway, I love my son, he is my pride and joy and I am so happy that I have been able to go through my spiritual journey with him.
Peace and love
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Support on the Journey
I love all the support I have received from my blood family, church family, Jewish family and all other members of my family, blood or not.
I think this is what it's all about, this life we live. If we can't support each other in the good times and in the bad times, what else do we have.
Sometimes I get annoyed with my husband when I have to ask him for a bit of money because I am short. He gets a little miffed and I look at him and shake my head. If he was in that position and I was the one making the most amount of money, that would be no problem for me to support and help him in any way I could.
Besides, the food is for him to eat, it's not like I am buying food and giving it to someone else.
Facebook, for me has become my staunchest place to get support. No matter what it is I can always count on my Facebook family for support.
We pray for each other, we cry for each other, we laugh with each other, we get miffed at each other, but all in all we support each other.
If someone is stuck and can't move, we support each other in moving forward no matter what the "problem" appears to be. Any health challenges bring a wave of prayer and support that the feeling of it is palpable.
If all the countries in the world supported each other, what a wonderful world it would be.
I read an article the other day about wealth and there are countries that have no poverty, no bag ladies or men, no homeless people. And, these countries are not as wealthy as ours is.
It never ceases to amaze me as to why we can't take model of each of the things that countries are doing right and put them all together and come up with PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TOWARDS MEN.
We read about the atrocities that people are perpetuating on each other. What a waste of time and energy. That energy could be better spent on making sure that everyone has enough to eat, a place to live, medicines and other necessities that we all take for granted in this country.
Let's support our troops, but let's also support the people in Appalachia and all over the world. We all bleed red blood which right there makes us all the same.
C'mon, let's support each other even more than we do already.
Peace and Light
I think this is what it's all about, this life we live. If we can't support each other in the good times and in the bad times, what else do we have.
Sometimes I get annoyed with my husband when I have to ask him for a bit of money because I am short. He gets a little miffed and I look at him and shake my head. If he was in that position and I was the one making the most amount of money, that would be no problem for me to support and help him in any way I could.
Besides, the food is for him to eat, it's not like I am buying food and giving it to someone else.
Facebook, for me has become my staunchest place to get support. No matter what it is I can always count on my Facebook family for support.
We pray for each other, we cry for each other, we laugh with each other, we get miffed at each other, but all in all we support each other.
If someone is stuck and can't move, we support each other in moving forward no matter what the "problem" appears to be. Any health challenges bring a wave of prayer and support that the feeling of it is palpable.
If all the countries in the world supported each other, what a wonderful world it would be.
I read an article the other day about wealth and there are countries that have no poverty, no bag ladies or men, no homeless people. And, these countries are not as wealthy as ours is.
It never ceases to amaze me as to why we can't take model of each of the things that countries are doing right and put them all together and come up with PEACE ON EARTH, GOOD WILL TOWARDS MEN.
We read about the atrocities that people are perpetuating on each other. What a waste of time and energy. That energy could be better spent on making sure that everyone has enough to eat, a place to live, medicines and other necessities that we all take for granted in this country.
Let's support our troops, but let's also support the people in Appalachia and all over the world. We all bleed red blood which right there makes us all the same.
C'mon, let's support each other even more than we do already.
Peace and Light
Monday, July 12, 2010
Resistance Along The Journey
So today, I felt resistance. I have had a knot in my stomach and realized that it's from the resistance I have been feeling to becoming successful, rich, etc.
Although I have been doing my tapping, I haven't been doing it every day, twice a day. It's isn't hard or time consuming, yet I have been resisting it.
Today I did an EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) on resistance. The knot went away.
We are such wonderful beings and we know it and yet we try to defeat ourselves at every turn. Yet, let an enemy try to invade or do something to our country and we fight to the death.
Why don't we apply the "fight" portion of Flight or Fight when it comes to simple things that don't involve violence. Sometimes that resistance we feel is because we are afraid of hurting another person in our life if we become successful, slim, healthy or whatever it is we desire to become.
I wrote an attempt at a screen play over 20 years ago. I have only shown it to one person and keep saying I am going to call a friend who is a writer to have him help me get it into a shape where "we" could pitch it to someone. I fully and completely need this other person on this journey because he will be a valuable asset as well as benefitter of the profits once this thing is finished.
What am I resisting? Success, limelight, riches. Geez, does that make me crazy or just afraid. I think the latter.
What are you resisting today? I have been putting my experiences with EFT on Facebook almost every day and this blog will go up also. Anyone reading this, please go to Brad Yates on You Tube and do along with him his resistance tapping.
Why the resistance. It's can't hurt; it isn't painful at all and I assure you, there will be a shift in your life and you will thank me.
Peace and Light
Although I have been doing my tapping, I haven't been doing it every day, twice a day. It's isn't hard or time consuming, yet I have been resisting it.
Today I did an EFT (Emotional Freedom Technique) on resistance. The knot went away.
We are such wonderful beings and we know it and yet we try to defeat ourselves at every turn. Yet, let an enemy try to invade or do something to our country and we fight to the death.
Why don't we apply the "fight" portion of Flight or Fight when it comes to simple things that don't involve violence. Sometimes that resistance we feel is because we are afraid of hurting another person in our life if we become successful, slim, healthy or whatever it is we desire to become.
I wrote an attempt at a screen play over 20 years ago. I have only shown it to one person and keep saying I am going to call a friend who is a writer to have him help me get it into a shape where "we" could pitch it to someone. I fully and completely need this other person on this journey because he will be a valuable asset as well as benefitter of the profits once this thing is finished.
What am I resisting? Success, limelight, riches. Geez, does that make me crazy or just afraid. I think the latter.
What are you resisting today? I have been putting my experiences with EFT on Facebook almost every day and this blog will go up also. Anyone reading this, please go to Brad Yates on You Tube and do along with him his resistance tapping.
Why the resistance. It's can't hurt; it isn't painful at all and I assure you, there will be a shift in your life and you will thank me.
Peace and Light
Saturday, July 10, 2010
Ruminating on the Journey
I like that word. I haven't looked it up but I assume it means thinking.
I am sitting here at the keyboard and just staring into space and ruminating on how good my life is. I have a beautiful family and gazillions of friends. I have breath in my body and I just plain love life.
Do you feel that way? And if not, why? What are you blocking? What are your fears? Anxieties? Excuses?
I feel, and it's only my opinion that people can make different choices at any moment in time. They just have to "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway." as Susan Jeffries says.
I used to be afraid of public speaking; the #1 fear of most people, by the way. I was asked to speak at a church in the San Fernando Valley and cheerfully said yes. After I did I realized what I had done. So I proceeded to tell all of my friends to come and hear me speak. Not the smartest thing if you are afraid of public speaking.
I prepared a topic, a few notes, maybe some passages of books and went to speak. It went well; my friend and family showed up and I did magnificently. Many times later, I love speaking in front of people.
Hmmm, maybe that's what I should do. I will have to feel that fear and look into it.
There are so many paths now to assist you in making different choices.
I had heard of EFT (Emotional Frequency Technique) and am a subscriber to a newsletter but never really delved into it. A friend called me last week and we talked about and he turned me on to You Tube. If you just came to the planet and didn't know how to do things, you could use YouTube. Not only do they have instructional videos, IT'S FREE. That's the best part.
He told me a gentlemen's name who did EFT for various things and I have been doing the Money Beyond Belief one for a few weeks now. Amazing things have been happening and I am so pleased.
I even turned my skeptical, Jewish sister on to it and after one tapping session, she won $72.00.
EFT involves tapping various parts of the upper body while speaking affirmation type statements while doing it.
The seven EFT points are fairly easy and they are:
Top of the head near the crown, on the side of the right or left eyebrow-the inner part, then the outer part, next to the far end of the eyebrow, under the nose, above the nose, near the collarbone and under the armpit.
If you just follow along in the videos, you should have it really soon. The points are the same, but sometimes in different order and I have even had a tapping session on line with someone who tapped the inside of the ankle.
Each is different.
I have noticed an entirely new way of thinking about everything. I am no longer worried about anything; I know that prosperity and abundance are mine right now and I am a money magnet. I know my health and well being of the body temple is doing everything it needs to do.
I know my family and friends are well and healthy despite appearances and I know that Spirit surrounds all of us.
Well, enough ruminating. I have to go get beautiful for a wedding today. I am looking forward to the wedding dress, the cocktails and dinner and especially the wedding cake.
Much love and light,
I am sitting here at the keyboard and just staring into space and ruminating on how good my life is. I have a beautiful family and gazillions of friends. I have breath in my body and I just plain love life.
Do you feel that way? And if not, why? What are you blocking? What are your fears? Anxieties? Excuses?
I feel, and it's only my opinion that people can make different choices at any moment in time. They just have to "Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway." as Susan Jeffries says.
I used to be afraid of public speaking; the #1 fear of most people, by the way. I was asked to speak at a church in the San Fernando Valley and cheerfully said yes. After I did I realized what I had done. So I proceeded to tell all of my friends to come and hear me speak. Not the smartest thing if you are afraid of public speaking.
I prepared a topic, a few notes, maybe some passages of books and went to speak. It went well; my friend and family showed up and I did magnificently. Many times later, I love speaking in front of people.
Hmmm, maybe that's what I should do. I will have to feel that fear and look into it.
There are so many paths now to assist you in making different choices.
I had heard of EFT (Emotional Frequency Technique) and am a subscriber to a newsletter but never really delved into it. A friend called me last week and we talked about and he turned me on to You Tube. If you just came to the planet and didn't know how to do things, you could use YouTube. Not only do they have instructional videos, IT'S FREE. That's the best part.
He told me a gentlemen's name who did EFT for various things and I have been doing the Money Beyond Belief one for a few weeks now. Amazing things have been happening and I am so pleased.
I even turned my skeptical, Jewish sister on to it and after one tapping session, she won $72.00.
EFT involves tapping various parts of the upper body while speaking affirmation type statements while doing it.
The seven EFT points are fairly easy and they are:
Top of the head near the crown, on the side of the right or left eyebrow-the inner part, then the outer part, next to the far end of the eyebrow, under the nose, above the nose, near the collarbone and under the armpit.
If you just follow along in the videos, you should have it really soon. The points are the same, but sometimes in different order and I have even had a tapping session on line with someone who tapped the inside of the ankle.
Each is different.
I have noticed an entirely new way of thinking about everything. I am no longer worried about anything; I know that prosperity and abundance are mine right now and I am a money magnet. I know my health and well being of the body temple is doing everything it needs to do.
I know my family and friends are well and healthy despite appearances and I know that Spirit surrounds all of us.
Well, enough ruminating. I have to go get beautiful for a wedding today. I am looking forward to the wedding dress, the cocktails and dinner and especially the wedding cake.
Much love and light,
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Long Time No Blog
Wow, I don't know how people do it. I guess they apply themselves to blog every day. I almost forgot I had a blog.
As I sit here this moment listening to Rev. Dr. Michael Beckwith streaming live I am so filled with joy. Today has actually been a joyful and somewhat sad day for me.
I had to go sign some legal papers with my cousins, Joan and Pat. Joan is in ill health and I have such wonderful memories of she and her sister Pat.
Joan, for example was making spaghetti at my home when I was a little girl and she was using the pressure cooker. Who knew you could or should make spaghetti in a pressure cooker. Well, needless to say, she had never used one before and it exploded and there was spaghetti all over the kitchen, especially on the ceiling.
She had it cleaned up before my mother came home but it remains a funny memory of her.
Pat was taking care of me once on a visit and we were going out and she dressed me in my little white dress and Mary Janes and instead of keeping me in the house, she sent me out to play. I promptly went to a neighbor's house and got in a mud puddle. That was the first time I had a bath in Tide.
Joan and her husband Max took me to the Museum of Modern Art in New York for the first time. I had on my little white gloves and as we went down the subway steps, naturally I held on to the railing. The gloves didn't past the "white glove test" at all. She was none too happy with me but, hey a girl has to hang on so she doesn't fall.
She also took me to have lunch at the United Nations where we lunched in the delegates commissary because she "knew" someone.
I have such wonderful and warm memories of those times I spent with my older cousins.
I know that people go away but when, not if, something happens to Joan I will be very sad.
Life has been interesting, had a visit from my first cousin, Karen from Tulsa. That was a blast. It's interesting that you grow up with people and never really know anything about them. During our visit we shared things about ourselves that neither of us ever knew.
We laughed and she had a chance to meet our friends out here in California.
It seems the summer season has created lots of things on our calendar. A party last Sunday for some very dear friends, a graduation this Saturday, Father's Day, next Saturday, Sacred Service Saturday with Agape. I haven't done this in a long time and wanted to be out in the fresh air and near water. I signed up to help clean the beach.
I love my life, even if it doesn't look perfect right now. Gratitude for what we already have makes it grow into so much more.
I know everything happens for a reason and I know that those little irritations aren't that at all, they are opportunities for me to look and see the hand of Spirit in my life.
I promise those of you who are following me to do my best to blog every day.
I do love writing and this is a wonderful creative outlet for me.
Thanks to my one follower; I hope to get more and know that I will.
Just remember,
To Laugh on the Spiritual Path, it's actually one big party if you let it be that for you.
Much love and light.
As I sit here this moment listening to Rev. Dr. Michael Beckwith streaming live I am so filled with joy. Today has actually been a joyful and somewhat sad day for me.
I had to go sign some legal papers with my cousins, Joan and Pat. Joan is in ill health and I have such wonderful memories of she and her sister Pat.
Joan, for example was making spaghetti at my home when I was a little girl and she was using the pressure cooker. Who knew you could or should make spaghetti in a pressure cooker. Well, needless to say, she had never used one before and it exploded and there was spaghetti all over the kitchen, especially on the ceiling.
She had it cleaned up before my mother came home but it remains a funny memory of her.
Pat was taking care of me once on a visit and we were going out and she dressed me in my little white dress and Mary Janes and instead of keeping me in the house, she sent me out to play. I promptly went to a neighbor's house and got in a mud puddle. That was the first time I had a bath in Tide.
Joan and her husband Max took me to the Museum of Modern Art in New York for the first time. I had on my little white gloves and as we went down the subway steps, naturally I held on to the railing. The gloves didn't past the "white glove test" at all. She was none too happy with me but, hey a girl has to hang on so she doesn't fall.
She also took me to have lunch at the United Nations where we lunched in the delegates commissary because she "knew" someone.
I have such wonderful and warm memories of those times I spent with my older cousins.
I know that people go away but when, not if, something happens to Joan I will be very sad.
Life has been interesting, had a visit from my first cousin, Karen from Tulsa. That was a blast. It's interesting that you grow up with people and never really know anything about them. During our visit we shared things about ourselves that neither of us ever knew.
We laughed and she had a chance to meet our friends out here in California.
It seems the summer season has created lots of things on our calendar. A party last Sunday for some very dear friends, a graduation this Saturday, Father's Day, next Saturday, Sacred Service Saturday with Agape. I haven't done this in a long time and wanted to be out in the fresh air and near water. I signed up to help clean the beach.
I love my life, even if it doesn't look perfect right now. Gratitude for what we already have makes it grow into so much more.
I know everything happens for a reason and I know that those little irritations aren't that at all, they are opportunities for me to look and see the hand of Spirit in my life.
I promise those of you who are following me to do my best to blog every day.
I do love writing and this is a wonderful creative outlet for me.
Thanks to my one follower; I hope to get more and know that I will.
Just remember,
To Laugh on the Spiritual Path, it's actually one big party if you let it be that for you.
Much love and light.
Monday, May 17, 2010
Our Children Are Not Our Children
I love my son. We have had a few rocky spots in the road in our relationship but ever since he turned 32 and his life has completely turned around; we have grown quite close.
He posted something on Facebook last night about some good fortune had had come into. He has been going to church with his sister and is enjoying the ministry as well as the minister. He was gifted with some things and also said he became saved.
I know the other day he posted that he was spiritual rather than religious and I think he can marry the two quite nicely. He is talking about starting his own ministry. He has always loved being around children and I envision him having a youth group of some kind.
I remember sometime after he was born, my friends asked me when I was going to get him baptized. I smiled and said never. The other person was quite shocked by that statement so I explained. "God gave him to me so therefore I don't need a ceremony to give him back to God."
I think he has given himself back to God because as soon as he changed his thinking and began to believe in himself and everyone around him, his life changed for the better.
There were still challenges, but he has been a way shower to me to be thankful and positive about everything that is going on in my life, no matter what the appearance is.
The gifts in their many forms that he is getting right now are an out picturing of his positive nature in the face of adversity.
He now has tools, most of which he has discovered for himself. He gives inspiration to others as well as himself. He told me people refer their friends to his Facebook page because of the positive statements he posts on a daily basis.
I am so very proud of him because he has grown into the kind of man I had always hoped he would. He is in an industry where he is respected and has knowledge of that industry that most don't have.
He has an entrepreneurial spirit and I know that sooner rather than later, he will have his own business and be very successful.
He is an amazing cook and I also see him going to culinary school some day, if for no other reason but to be able to cook extravagant dinners for his mother (lol.).
He has made some life changing decisions in the past few weeks and I applaud him because he pushed through the fear (once again showing me that it can be done if you put your mind to it.)
I love you, my darling son.
Happy Traveling
He posted something on Facebook last night about some good fortune had had come into. He has been going to church with his sister and is enjoying the ministry as well as the minister. He was gifted with some things and also said he became saved.
I know the other day he posted that he was spiritual rather than religious and I think he can marry the two quite nicely. He is talking about starting his own ministry. He has always loved being around children and I envision him having a youth group of some kind.
I remember sometime after he was born, my friends asked me when I was going to get him baptized. I smiled and said never. The other person was quite shocked by that statement so I explained. "God gave him to me so therefore I don't need a ceremony to give him back to God."
I think he has given himself back to God because as soon as he changed his thinking and began to believe in himself and everyone around him, his life changed for the better.
There were still challenges, but he has been a way shower to me to be thankful and positive about everything that is going on in my life, no matter what the appearance is.
The gifts in their many forms that he is getting right now are an out picturing of his positive nature in the face of adversity.
He now has tools, most of which he has discovered for himself. He gives inspiration to others as well as himself. He told me people refer their friends to his Facebook page because of the positive statements he posts on a daily basis.
I am so very proud of him because he has grown into the kind of man I had always hoped he would. He is in an industry where he is respected and has knowledge of that industry that most don't have.
He has an entrepreneurial spirit and I know that sooner rather than later, he will have his own business and be very successful.
He is an amazing cook and I also see him going to culinary school some day, if for no other reason but to be able to cook extravagant dinners for his mother (lol.).
He has made some life changing decisions in the past few weeks and I applaud him because he pushed through the fear (once again showing me that it can be done if you put your mind to it.)
I love you, my darling son.
Happy Traveling
Sunday, May 16, 2010
Spirituality vs. Religion
For me being a spiritual being differs from being religious. Religion for me is much more structured with prayers, songs and other types of rituals that take place both in private and in churches.
I have always been a spiritual being. I love nature; love being out doors, hearing the birds sing and smelling the sweet fragrance of trees and flowers. For me this is God in its fullest and truest form.
As a child I "had" to go to church and church, let's face it was long and boring. My mother wouldn't let me go to the bathroom during church and sleeping was enough to cause her to have an apoplexic fit, lol.
My son recently told someone that he was spiritual, not religious so I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. My father was the same way and so was my grandfather. Both never entered a church unless someone was getting married but they both had a sense of God that was profound.
My grandfather was a 33rd degree Mason and my grandmother was in the Eastern Star. Now, she attended church regularly and had the same seat in the same pew and if anyone was sitting in her "space", she would ask them to please move.
I attend a spiritual New Thought church and discovered New Thought when I was an adult. I love the non-traditional nuances of New Thought. It helps me to get along in the world.
I also honor other philosophies and religions and am deeply interested in Buddhism and read and study voraciously.
I also listen to Christian ministers like Rev. Joel Olsteen and Rev. Joyce Meyer, both of whom teach a type of New Thought philosophy with Christian roots. I have attended services at Catholic churches where the same New Thought ideas come through.
I think ultimately all of us will come to the same conclusion. God is God is God. No matter what name what you believe in is called, we are all children of God; we are all created the same and have the same every day problems. We all go through illness, death, accident, loss of jobs, loss of loves so we are all in the same boat.
Bill Maher is adamant about his antheism. He is also judgmental and can't understand that he should just leave people alone in their beliefs. Everyone has a right to believe what they believe. If he chooses not to believe in anything, good for him.
I believe that whatever gets you through the tempestuous situations that come up in your life, no matter what it is called is a good thing. None of us can depend on our friends and family to see us through things, God will always be there.
Leaning on whatever you believe in is just fine with me. There is so much going on in the world right now and we all need something we can cling to so that we can make it through the darkness.
The light is always there, ready and waiting for us to turn to it and I truly believe in my heart that the world would be a better place for all if we just stopped judging each other and saw the similarities rather than the differences.
This is what tears us apart as is the feeling that what you believe in is better than what I believe in. Nothing is better than the other. It's all good because it's all God.
Find what works for you, cherish it in your heart, don't let anyone tell you that you are wrong for your beliefs. Your beliefs are yours and my beliefs are mine. No good or bad, no better or worse.
Happy Traveling.
I have always been a spiritual being. I love nature; love being out doors, hearing the birds sing and smelling the sweet fragrance of trees and flowers. For me this is God in its fullest and truest form.
As a child I "had" to go to church and church, let's face it was long and boring. My mother wouldn't let me go to the bathroom during church and sleeping was enough to cause her to have an apoplexic fit, lol.
My son recently told someone that he was spiritual, not religious so I guess the apple doesn't fall far from the tree. My father was the same way and so was my grandfather. Both never entered a church unless someone was getting married but they both had a sense of God that was profound.
My grandfather was a 33rd degree Mason and my grandmother was in the Eastern Star. Now, she attended church regularly and had the same seat in the same pew and if anyone was sitting in her "space", she would ask them to please move.
I attend a spiritual New Thought church and discovered New Thought when I was an adult. I love the non-traditional nuances of New Thought. It helps me to get along in the world.
I also honor other philosophies and religions and am deeply interested in Buddhism and read and study voraciously.
I also listen to Christian ministers like Rev. Joel Olsteen and Rev. Joyce Meyer, both of whom teach a type of New Thought philosophy with Christian roots. I have attended services at Catholic churches where the same New Thought ideas come through.
I think ultimately all of us will come to the same conclusion. God is God is God. No matter what name what you believe in is called, we are all children of God; we are all created the same and have the same every day problems. We all go through illness, death, accident, loss of jobs, loss of loves so we are all in the same boat.
Bill Maher is adamant about his antheism. He is also judgmental and can't understand that he should just leave people alone in their beliefs. Everyone has a right to believe what they believe. If he chooses not to believe in anything, good for him.
I believe that whatever gets you through the tempestuous situations that come up in your life, no matter what it is called is a good thing. None of us can depend on our friends and family to see us through things, God will always be there.
Leaning on whatever you believe in is just fine with me. There is so much going on in the world right now and we all need something we can cling to so that we can make it through the darkness.
The light is always there, ready and waiting for us to turn to it and I truly believe in my heart that the world would be a better place for all if we just stopped judging each other and saw the similarities rather than the differences.
This is what tears us apart as is the feeling that what you believe in is better than what I believe in. Nothing is better than the other. It's all good because it's all God.
Find what works for you, cherish it in your heart, don't let anyone tell you that you are wrong for your beliefs. Your beliefs are yours and my beliefs are mine. No good or bad, no better or worse.
Happy Traveling.
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Search of a Spiritual Being
I have been doing my family geneology for about 10 or so years now and it has been an interesting process. My grandmother's side of the family has been very easy because I already had lots of documentation and the trail has been easy to follow.
My mother's family, on the other hand, has been a bit more difficult. Only having one person alive (my mother's half brother) I have had to do a bit more digging.
The same with my grandfather's side of the family.
During the search interesting information came to light as well as cousins and relatives that I had never heard of but the family connection runs strong and deep. From Ireland, England, Maryland, Pennsylvania, our family thrived and grew. I have heard that someone in my family was in every war fought at least back as far as the Revolutionary War.
As I was searching for my roots, lots of stuff came up, especially surrounding my mother and the dynamic she had with my grandmother. I was able to get a clearer picture of her life and what it must have been like.
It gave me a greater understanding of her upbringing and how she treated and raised me.
The search for God has been much easier. God is forever with us and all we need to do to find it is to become still and let the voice speak to us in whatever form we can understand.
I have been a spiritual seeker all my life in some form or another. When I left home I was able to make my own decisions as to where I wanted to worship. I found a philosophy called Religious Science and this fit the type of things I had been thinking all my life.
Life is an adventure, there are bumps in the road that make us pause, and as we pause we begin to see what has been all around us all along.
Nature is the greatest teacher that we have. Nature teaches us to surrender and let go. Trees don't cry or pout when the leaves fall off the branches. They know that the leaves falling signals a time of rest and rejuvenation, and in the spring when the leaves come back, it is a time to rejoice.
Animals let their children go after teaching them the ways that will keep them alive and away from predators. Human mothers have a much tougher time letting go. We want to hold on just a bit longer.
If we begin to pay attention, we can be taught to surrender our little opinions and see the bigger picture. If we pay attention, we will see that gratitude for everything in our lives, no matter what it looks like opens us to greater and greater gifts.
If we love and forgive instead of hate and hold resentment, our lives seem to loosen and unimaginable wonders begin to come into our lives.
If there is one thing I could teach the world, it would be to forgive, let go and allow that which wants to be birthed in you to come forward. Birth isn't the prettiest of things but the end result is often the most beautiful things we have ever seen.
Begin now to let yourself be taught of nature and to be grateful for everything that you have and those things that you don't have. The wonder of it all will fill your heart.
Happy Traveling
My mother's family, on the other hand, has been a bit more difficult. Only having one person alive (my mother's half brother) I have had to do a bit more digging.
The same with my grandfather's side of the family.
During the search interesting information came to light as well as cousins and relatives that I had never heard of but the family connection runs strong and deep. From Ireland, England, Maryland, Pennsylvania, our family thrived and grew. I have heard that someone in my family was in every war fought at least back as far as the Revolutionary War.
As I was searching for my roots, lots of stuff came up, especially surrounding my mother and the dynamic she had with my grandmother. I was able to get a clearer picture of her life and what it must have been like.
It gave me a greater understanding of her upbringing and how she treated and raised me.
The search for God has been much easier. God is forever with us and all we need to do to find it is to become still and let the voice speak to us in whatever form we can understand.
I have been a spiritual seeker all my life in some form or another. When I left home I was able to make my own decisions as to where I wanted to worship. I found a philosophy called Religious Science and this fit the type of things I had been thinking all my life.
Life is an adventure, there are bumps in the road that make us pause, and as we pause we begin to see what has been all around us all along.
Nature is the greatest teacher that we have. Nature teaches us to surrender and let go. Trees don't cry or pout when the leaves fall off the branches. They know that the leaves falling signals a time of rest and rejuvenation, and in the spring when the leaves come back, it is a time to rejoice.
Animals let their children go after teaching them the ways that will keep them alive and away from predators. Human mothers have a much tougher time letting go. We want to hold on just a bit longer.
If we begin to pay attention, we can be taught to surrender our little opinions and see the bigger picture. If we pay attention, we will see that gratitude for everything in our lives, no matter what it looks like opens us to greater and greater gifts.
If we love and forgive instead of hate and hold resentment, our lives seem to loosen and unimaginable wonders begin to come into our lives.
If there is one thing I could teach the world, it would be to forgive, let go and allow that which wants to be birthed in you to come forward. Birth isn't the prettiest of things but the end result is often the most beautiful things we have ever seen.
Begin now to let yourself be taught of nature and to be grateful for everything that you have and those things that you don't have. The wonder of it all will fill your heart.
Happy Traveling
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Health of a Spiritual Being
Today my husband had an appointment with his cardiologist. He has been on blood pressure medication, heart medication (which he will have to take for the rest of his life) and cholesterol lowering medication.
I recently have read many articles where people taking even 10 milligrams of cholesterol medications can have memory loss ranging from light to severe. My husband's memory loss falls somewhere in the range in between. It is disturbing to me that his cardiologist would raise the milligrams to 40 a day of one type of medication when he is also taking another medication that is 500 mgs. To me this is one milligram to many.
I understand doctors trying to keep people healthy but sometimes common sense and quality of life seems to me to be of great importance also.
Spiritual beings are inherently healthy by reason of the fact that the Spirit of you knows nothing about unhealthy. As spiritual beings, we have power and once we have trained ourselves to use that power, there will be no more need for medications of any kind, because we will all experience the wholeness that we already are.
Are we brainwashed? Each and every day we are bombarded with information about everything. If a new product comes on the market, whether a new health product, new shampoo, detergent, medication, we are bombarded continuously with information that tells us we have to have it or we have IT and need the medication.
Has the computer and TV age overwhelmed us with so much information that any ache, pain or other discomfort makes us run to our physicians to find out if we have THAT and can we have that new medication I read or heard about on television.
Our ancestors didn't have fancy medications so they did what they were taught to do by generations before them or by Native Americans they lived side by side with. Roots, herbs, plants, hell even saliva were used back in the day to keep people healthy (preventative medicine) or when they did come down with an ailment, most could be easily cured by digging up the nearest root or mashing the berries on the bush out in the yard.
We believe that progress has made us smarter. Yes it has, and no it hasn't. Our foods are over processed, we ingest animals as food that have been pumped full or antibiotics and other things that may be good for the animals but harmful to us.
The pharmaceutical companies will not rest until every human on the planet is taking a product that they created. Just like the oil tit, we must get off the medicine tit.
Andrew Weil and many others who have a background in medicine or were doctors themselves are beginning to turn to what our ancestors knew from the beginning. If we take care of ourselves and do things that keep us healthy, yoga, Qi Gong, pilates and many others, we won't may be able to wean ourselves off the medications that we all seem to be taking.
As healthy Spiritual Beings, we owe it to ourselves to visualize ourselves healthy, to find foods that aren't processed, to get out in nature and appreciate the green trees, the blue skies, smelling flowers and just letting nature know that we appreciate it. If we did more of these things, we would all become keepers of our planet.
Our Native American friends and indiginous tribes all knew that protecting the planet and only using what we need was the key to keeping our planet pure so that our children would have a planet to enjoy.
Both our health and that of the place we call home are in dire need of a change in attitude; a being different in the world so that we don't suddenly have to figure out if there is some place else to go because we have treated this place where we are right now so badly that it can no longer sustain us.
We have all seen the end of the world movies and maybe they have it mostly right. Anything that you appreciate and love will thrive and grow, that which you treat badly will fight back and since everything we do has consequences, we owe it to ourselves and future generations to take care of our home, our bodies and each other.
We are all in this together; we are one humongous family and it's time to treat each other with respect.
Happy Traveling
I recently have read many articles where people taking even 10 milligrams of cholesterol medications can have memory loss ranging from light to severe. My husband's memory loss falls somewhere in the range in between. It is disturbing to me that his cardiologist would raise the milligrams to 40 a day of one type of medication when he is also taking another medication that is 500 mgs. To me this is one milligram to many.
I understand doctors trying to keep people healthy but sometimes common sense and quality of life seems to me to be of great importance also.
Spiritual beings are inherently healthy by reason of the fact that the Spirit of you knows nothing about unhealthy. As spiritual beings, we have power and once we have trained ourselves to use that power, there will be no more need for medications of any kind, because we will all experience the wholeness that we already are.
Are we brainwashed? Each and every day we are bombarded with information about everything. If a new product comes on the market, whether a new health product, new shampoo, detergent, medication, we are bombarded continuously with information that tells us we have to have it or we have IT and need the medication.
Has the computer and TV age overwhelmed us with so much information that any ache, pain or other discomfort makes us run to our physicians to find out if we have THAT and can we have that new medication I read or heard about on television.
Our ancestors didn't have fancy medications so they did what they were taught to do by generations before them or by Native Americans they lived side by side with. Roots, herbs, plants, hell even saliva were used back in the day to keep people healthy (preventative medicine) or when they did come down with an ailment, most could be easily cured by digging up the nearest root or mashing the berries on the bush out in the yard.
We believe that progress has made us smarter. Yes it has, and no it hasn't. Our foods are over processed, we ingest animals as food that have been pumped full or antibiotics and other things that may be good for the animals but harmful to us.
The pharmaceutical companies will not rest until every human on the planet is taking a product that they created. Just like the oil tit, we must get off the medicine tit.
Andrew Weil and many others who have a background in medicine or were doctors themselves are beginning to turn to what our ancestors knew from the beginning. If we take care of ourselves and do things that keep us healthy, yoga, Qi Gong, pilates and many others, we won't may be able to wean ourselves off the medications that we all seem to be taking.
As healthy Spiritual Beings, we owe it to ourselves to visualize ourselves healthy, to find foods that aren't processed, to get out in nature and appreciate the green trees, the blue skies, smelling flowers and just letting nature know that we appreciate it. If we did more of these things, we would all become keepers of our planet.
Our Native American friends and indiginous tribes all knew that protecting the planet and only using what we need was the key to keeping our planet pure so that our children would have a planet to enjoy.
Both our health and that of the place we call home are in dire need of a change in attitude; a being different in the world so that we don't suddenly have to figure out if there is some place else to go because we have treated this place where we are right now so badly that it can no longer sustain us.
We have all seen the end of the world movies and maybe they have it mostly right. Anything that you appreciate and love will thrive and grow, that which you treat badly will fight back and since everything we do has consequences, we owe it to ourselves and future generations to take care of our home, our bodies and each other.
We are all in this together; we are one humongous family and it's time to treat each other with respect.
Happy Traveling
Monday, May 10, 2010
Adventures of a Spiritual Being
Life is one big adventure, isn't it? We sometimes get down at the mouth about what's happening in our lives but everything is a learning experience. Something is being taught to us, whether it's to let go of the people, places and things that no longer serve the Divine Purpose for our lives (those things that pull us down and tell us we can't, when we know we can) and after every seeming setback something new is birthed in us whether it's determination, courage, peace, love and joy.
Not being afraid of what is presented to us helps us get through it much quicker and helps us to learn the lesson we were meant to learn.
My son is on a great adventure. He lived with us the majority of his life, lived with a woman and a child, then by himself and now he has taken the leap to protect himself from danger and has leaped into an entirely new lifestyle; and isn't that exciting.
I remember when I did the same thing over 40 years ago. I don't remember having any fear because I was going someplace where I knew people, I was going to be living with relatives like he is and I was just excited to be away from my parents for the first time and that in and of itself was very exciting.
I know he will be successful no matter where he is and that life will continue to teach him things. I also know that he is aware now and prepared to learn those lessons with grace and ease.
The world is everyone's oyster, ripe with the pearls that make up our being as spiritual beings having a human experience.
Take every opportunity as you walk along this path to be aware of your surroundings, to get to know yourself and in doing that you will have moments where you are afraid and uncertain about what to do but if you get still and just listen, answers will come and you will know which way to turn.
Don't be afraid of life's challenges, they are all opportunities to grow and evolve into the true nature of who we are. There are guideposts along the way and sometimes we fail to realize what they really are. We get angry at what seems to be happening but fear not, it's all part of the Divine Plan.
As you begin your week, be on the lookout for the guideposts and if you get confused or concerned, take a moment, go somewhere where you can get quiet and still and just listen. Write down any insights or revelations that come to you, but become aware of what Spirit is trying to tell you.
You will be amazed how quickly your life will turn in a different direction and things will begin to look different and you will become different in your own life.
Happy Traveling
Not being afraid of what is presented to us helps us get through it much quicker and helps us to learn the lesson we were meant to learn.
My son is on a great adventure. He lived with us the majority of his life, lived with a woman and a child, then by himself and now he has taken the leap to protect himself from danger and has leaped into an entirely new lifestyle; and isn't that exciting.
I remember when I did the same thing over 40 years ago. I don't remember having any fear because I was going someplace where I knew people, I was going to be living with relatives like he is and I was just excited to be away from my parents for the first time and that in and of itself was very exciting.
I know he will be successful no matter where he is and that life will continue to teach him things. I also know that he is aware now and prepared to learn those lessons with grace and ease.
The world is everyone's oyster, ripe with the pearls that make up our being as spiritual beings having a human experience.
Take every opportunity as you walk along this path to be aware of your surroundings, to get to know yourself and in doing that you will have moments where you are afraid and uncertain about what to do but if you get still and just listen, answers will come and you will know which way to turn.
Don't be afraid of life's challenges, they are all opportunities to grow and evolve into the true nature of who we are. There are guideposts along the way and sometimes we fail to realize what they really are. We get angry at what seems to be happening but fear not, it's all part of the Divine Plan.
As you begin your week, be on the lookout for the guideposts and if you get confused or concerned, take a moment, go somewhere where you can get quiet and still and just listen. Write down any insights or revelations that come to you, but become aware of what Spirit is trying to tell you.
You will be amazed how quickly your life will turn in a different direction and things will begin to look different and you will become different in your own life.
Happy Traveling
Sunday, May 9, 2010
A Mother's Spiritual Journey
Mothers are necessary and have everything to do with all life on this planet. Human mothers and animal mothers fight fiercely to protect their children. Elephant mothers will even stay with their children's bodies after death and will separate from the herd to continue to stay by their child. They grieve just as we do when something happens to their children.
Today is Mother's Day and as we all honor our mothers whether they are here physically with us or not, we remember the good times, the not so good times and everything in between. I became a mother at the age of 29. This occurred mostly because I had spoken it into existence many years before after having found out that my mother didn't have me till relatively late in life and had problems. I vowed out loud from the time I was about 12 years old that if I was 29 years old and didn't have a husband, I would find a man and have a child.
A perfect example of what we say, the Universe listens to and complies. I met a man at the age of 29, got pregnant and had my son when I was 30.
I wanted a girl and even in my teenage years had two sets of names ready. Tammy Cherise and Lisa Sherrell (the name of my good friend.) Well, out came this little beautiful bundle and it had equipment that clearly said, I'm not a girl and you better think of some new names quick.
Michael was the first name that popped into my mind (I guess I was thinking in the angelic realm) but a little voice in my head said, "This may be the only child you have and since it's a boy, name him after your father and grandfather." I did, and this wonderful spiritual being I had just given birth to became Vincent Robert Beane. A proud name for him to carry through life as he is one of the few Beane boys left in the family.
Well, he has lived up to his name and more. He has become a vibrant, witty, smart, successful man who can hold his own in every situation no matter what it is. He is confident in who he is (all the Beane men are), he is talented, funny and has a wide circle of friends who love and admire him.
He now has a son and that journey has been both joyful and painful for all of us in so many ways. I am proud of how he has handled all this and know that when he does see his son and explains it all to him, and tells him what he went through just to be able to see him, his son will be proud also.
So, this spiritual mother having a human experience salutes and gives props to the women in my life who have been mothers to me; my own mother and those others who have come and gone in my life. My Aunt Bunny who became my mother-in-law and just recently left the planet, my mother Fran Hinzman who allowed me to stay with her when I visited my BFF, and all those others who have taught me so much about being a mother and about being a women.
Much love and light to you all, whether here or gone. I love you all very much.
Happy traveling
Today is Mother's Day and as we all honor our mothers whether they are here physically with us or not, we remember the good times, the not so good times and everything in between. I became a mother at the age of 29. This occurred mostly because I had spoken it into existence many years before after having found out that my mother didn't have me till relatively late in life and had problems. I vowed out loud from the time I was about 12 years old that if I was 29 years old and didn't have a husband, I would find a man and have a child.
A perfect example of what we say, the Universe listens to and complies. I met a man at the age of 29, got pregnant and had my son when I was 30.
I wanted a girl and even in my teenage years had two sets of names ready. Tammy Cherise and Lisa Sherrell (the name of my good friend.) Well, out came this little beautiful bundle and it had equipment that clearly said, I'm not a girl and you better think of some new names quick.
Michael was the first name that popped into my mind (I guess I was thinking in the angelic realm) but a little voice in my head said, "This may be the only child you have and since it's a boy, name him after your father and grandfather." I did, and this wonderful spiritual being I had just given birth to became Vincent Robert Beane. A proud name for him to carry through life as he is one of the few Beane boys left in the family.
Well, he has lived up to his name and more. He has become a vibrant, witty, smart, successful man who can hold his own in every situation no matter what it is. He is confident in who he is (all the Beane men are), he is talented, funny and has a wide circle of friends who love and admire him.
He now has a son and that journey has been both joyful and painful for all of us in so many ways. I am proud of how he has handled all this and know that when he does see his son and explains it all to him, and tells him what he went through just to be able to see him, his son will be proud also.
So, this spiritual mother having a human experience salutes and gives props to the women in my life who have been mothers to me; my own mother and those others who have come and gone in my life. My Aunt Bunny who became my mother-in-law and just recently left the planet, my mother Fran Hinzman who allowed me to stay with her when I visited my BFF, and all those others who have taught me so much about being a mother and about being a women.
Much love and light to you all, whether here or gone. I love you all very much.
Happy traveling
Saturday, May 8, 2010
The Things That Make Us Stronger
It is true that what does not kill us makes us stronger. It has been a very strange and dramatic week. Stuff happened and It brought me down for a while. Never having been involved in any kind of violence, what occurred shook me to my core. But I got stronger also. I realized that this was just an illusion and something greater was being birthed out of the experience. My son grew stronger, more focused and I did also. Decisions were made, steps were taken and out of darkness came light.
I am going to go away for a while to re-group, re-charge and be still. Going home to the place where I grew up is now very important to me. When I lived there, all I could think about was getting out. I did and experienced many wonderful things. I truly believe that most adults over a certain age, do return to their hometowns and reconnect with what they weren't able to connect with when growing up. I love my hometown and am very proud of most of the things that have occurred there. Movies have been made, presidents and vice-presidents began the journey to the White House there, young women were made famous by appearing on a television show called Survivor.
Strength certainly does come out of adversity but only if we allow that to be the Truth of any situation. Some choose a different route and leave the planet but those of us who stay grew deeper into the realization of who we truly are.
As I write this, it is the day before Mothers Day. My mother is gone, my best friend's mother left the planet a few days before Mother's Day last year. I know that she is sad but I also know she remembers the good times, as I do, the times when we laughed with our mothers and cried with our mothers. I have a son of my own and I am proud to be his mother. He has shown tremendous growth into the man I always knew he could be. I am proud of him and what he has accomplished so far in his life and know that more is coming.
This being my first blog, I will stop for now. I look forward to sharing my journeys with you and hope that you are inspired to write about your own journeys.
Happy Traveling
I am going to go away for a while to re-group, re-charge and be still. Going home to the place where I grew up is now very important to me. When I lived there, all I could think about was getting out. I did and experienced many wonderful things. I truly believe that most adults over a certain age, do return to their hometowns and reconnect with what they weren't able to connect with when growing up. I love my hometown and am very proud of most of the things that have occurred there. Movies have been made, presidents and vice-presidents began the journey to the White House there, young women were made famous by appearing on a television show called Survivor.
Strength certainly does come out of adversity but only if we allow that to be the Truth of any situation. Some choose a different route and leave the planet but those of us who stay grew deeper into the realization of who we truly are.
As I write this, it is the day before Mothers Day. My mother is gone, my best friend's mother left the planet a few days before Mother's Day last year. I know that she is sad but I also know she remembers the good times, as I do, the times when we laughed with our mothers and cried with our mothers. I have a son of my own and I am proud to be his mother. He has shown tremendous growth into the man I always knew he could be. I am proud of him and what he has accomplished so far in his life and know that more is coming.
This being my first blog, I will stop for now. I look forward to sharing my journeys with you and hope that you are inspired to write about your own journeys.
Happy Traveling
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